Thursday, February 12, 2009

What is it???

I don't know if it is just me, but the last couple of months I have had a hard time being motivated to do much of anything besides watch Jaxon, clean the house, and sleep. (even though I don't really get sleep). I used to be so productive. I used to run, make cards, scrapbook, bake, cook, go out with friends, read more....etc... I am not sure what the cause of it is, or if it is due to multiple things. I know that having health problems and having a baby can change things drastically, but I feel like I am not reaching my potential everyday. I feel like I am dragging, and I am so tired of it. On a better note, I have had a great day today. It is amazing what a good night sleep can do for you. For my birthday, Mark took the monitor and slept in the other room last night and just woke me up when Jaxon was ready to eat and let me go back to bed until he had to get ready for work. How sweet is that? It was so nice to not wake up at every little noise from Jaxon. I feel like I have so much more energy today. I have already accomplished so much!! And of course since I am in a better mood, Jaxon is in a better mood. Anyways, I just needed to vent a little bit. I am hoping that over the next few months I can get my act together and start living life more fully!!! :)


  1. Those are cute pictures of your men! Happy birthday! I love you!

  2. What a sweet birthday gift! I'm glad you had a great day. And I love the pictures - Jaxon is adorable!

    Ok, about feeling like you aren't accomplishing anything. Health problems DEFINITELY make it hard to be super productive, at least for me. When I was having health issues over the past year, I was always tired and didn't have a lot of energy in general. Secondly, having a baby DEFINITELY makes it harder for me to get things done. I feel like I can hardly keep on top of my house and there are just three of us here! It's weird how much energy those little cuties can suck out of us! I just try to tell myself that the most important thing is taking care of Nathan and then I try to have "little" goals for myself so I can feel prodcutive. Some days I am proud of myself because I watched Nathan all day AND got the dishes done! Sad, but true! (I seriously wonder how mothers with multiple children do it!) Plus, it is important that we take care of ourselves so that we have the energy to take care of our families. So sometimes we have to let things go and come to terms that we may not be productive in the same ways we used to be.

    Anyway, hang in there!

  3. THAT is a great birthday present.

    I had a terrible night's sleep this weekend at a Girl's Camp sleepover where I was rooming with a snorer and wow, did it ever impress upon me how miserable even one lousy night can make you!