Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Perfect Day for Zilker!

The sun is shining.  The air is nice and chilly.  I'm happy.  The kids are happy.  
So much fun on the train ride and playground.
I love this time of year!

Monday, December 10, 2012

A visit to the big guy...

Miriam was totally chill in line and Jaxon was whining the whole time.  When we finally made it, this is what we got!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

2012 Austin Out of the Darkness Walk

For the last several months as a family we have been fundraising for this walk.  The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention is at the forefront of research, education and prevention initiatives designed to reduce loss of life from suicide.  We were so humbled at the support and donations given by so many families and friends.  We were only able to do it because of you.  Even if we were only able to help prevent one life from being lost it was worth it.  
It was an emotional day, but it was for a good cause.  
I love you and miss you more than you know Nate.

All of the pictures were taken by Ginny Belofsky from Ginny B Photography.  Thanks for sharing Ginny!
So many friends and loved ones here to support
Mom and Dad
Us, Jenna, Trever, and Stephen.  Dave and Jessica and the babies came as well.  We love you guys and are so grateful for your love and support.
Hayden, Kaiya, Layla made posters to carry
Mom and the girls during the ceremony
During the Ceremony.  They rang a bell for the names of all the loved ones lost by suicide of those in attendance.  It was heartbreaking how long it went on.
Once much support!  Team Nathan
Mom and Dad

Sunday, November 4, 2012


We missed the Trunk-or-Treat this year due to a deadly stomach virus:)  Luckily we were up and running with plenty of time to de-germ before trick-or-treating on Halloween!  My little Ladybug was not a huge fan of the evening as evident in the pictures.  Darth Vader on the other hand had a blast with his cousins.  Our tradition is to go to my sisters on Halloween and the whole gang goes together.  Thanks Jen we had a blast!!

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Two peas in a pod

Miriam and I got to go on a little day date with Grandma Allen today.  Mim enjoyed watching the birds while we ate treats at Starbucks.  Isn't this the cutest picture you've ever seen?  I'm so glad I got her ears pierced!  She looks so adorable. 

You will notice a trend in the next several pictures.  These two are becoming fast friends.  It melts my heart.  They always want to participate in what the other is doing and Jaxon is so sweet and plays so nicely with her even though she is still so little.  

 Daddy's the best!  Spoils the kids with ice cream cones and even let them lay in the counter to eat it!

 Wow!  He actually wanted to color with her.

 Tape, glue, scissors, you name it!

Crazy kids!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

It's okay.

I feel like we live in a world that slips by in a hurry. We are all so busy. Everything is so fast paced. How quickly can I get from point A to point B? How fast can I make it in and out of this store? Which line will get me through the fastest? How many things can I cram into my day? How many THINGS can I check off my list? How fast can this problem be fixed?

How quickly can you bounce back to your "old self"?
How soon until you act normal?

I've realized something.

It's okay to put the laundry down or step away from the dishes.
It's okay to hold your babies when they just want to be held.
It's okay to wait in line or be last.
It's okay to walk sometimes instead of running.
It's okay to pass the sign up sheet this once.

It's okay to hurt.
It's okay to cry.
It's okay to be confused, and angry, and scream.
It's okay to let others in and show your emotions.
It's okay to be sad and mourn a loss.
It's okay to talk about and remember those we've lost.

Our world moves so quickly that I feel like society looks down upon those who slow down or take a break; look down upon those who have fallen and stretch before getting back up; look down upon those who walk until they work up to a run. I realized that all of those things are okay. It is a part of healing, learning, and growing.

Friday, August 17, 2012


It's the little things!
Sweet Jaxon:
I tucked him in for nap, and as I'm getting ready to shut the door he hops to the ground and kneels down. I asked him what he was doing....."saying my prayers by myself mom!" was his response.
Awww melt my heart.
So I shut the door and eavesdropped.....
He continued to pray....
"Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for my day, thank you for my family, bless daddy to get home safe from work, bless we can have fun, bless Nathan that he will be ok, thank you for my blessings, in the name of Jesus Christ Amen."

All on his own!
I love that boy!
Tender mercy:)

Monday, August 13, 2012

Comic Relief

She loves to put clothes on her head
Giving herself a jello bath

This little lady is 20 months old today.
She is turning into quite a character.
She makes us laugh everyday.
She is our little miracle baby,
and everyday I am grateful that I have her in my life.
Love you Mim!

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Still Progression

It is the hardest time for me.
In the quiet dark my mind wanders.
It questions.
It doubts.
It hurts.

Morning comes.
I can breathe again.
The sun is bright and beautiful.
I snuggle my babies tight.
I remember but I move forward.
I live.

Friday, July 13, 2012

"Just what the doctor ordered..."

The famous Ice Cream Parlor!
Top of Bears Hump in Waterton
Oh ya know, just helpin grandpa fix the mower...
just one shelf in my grandma's "great room"
Look at that handsome devil. Waterton Lake
Bears Hump hike

We made it
Red Rock
Burning brush for grandpa
Such a hard worker. Love him!
Tree line by the road at grandparents
grandparents old barn
View of Waterton at top of hike
This has always been my favorite place in the whole world to go. It was Nathan's favorite place to go too. This trip was the hardest it has ever been and also the best in many ways. The last time we were there he was there playing with my kids, sleeping on the couch across from us, soaking in ol' Glenwood with us. Every where I looked I could picture old times with him there. And for that reason it was bitter sweet.
I have so many fun memories of growing up going to grandma and grandpa's house....trampoline fights and trampoline sleepovers, playing dress up in the basement, sneaking treats out of grandma's deep freezer, riding on grandpa's lawnmower, eating home made jam and rolls, grandma's sugar drawer, picking raspberries, Waterton, swimming at the damn, ice cream parlor trips, card games, family reunions....the list could go on and on.
I am so blessed to be a part of such an amazing family and heritage. It was so wonderful to sit with my grandpa and listen to him as he whispered sweet comfort and guidance into my ear, and work away in the kitchen with my beautiful grandmother who has taught me so much. I am so grateful for the examples they are to me.

We missed you Nate. I thought of you as we made that crazy climb to the top of Bear's Hump. I know you would have been right there with us. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I thought of you as we watched the kids skipping rocks on the lake. You would have been right there teaching them how and probably getting in with them. I thought of you as we worked in grandpa's yard. You would have been the first to offer help. I thought of you as we went to the parlor as we always do. You would have eaten an insane amount of ice cream just to show off. I thought of you as I drifted to sleep in the basement under the blue quilt that grandma made, next to the toys that we used to play with and across from the couch that you last slept on. I thought of you and I smiled, and I cried. I am so grateful for all of the memories that I share of you. Every day there are little reminders of what I have lost, but I try to remember what I still have. With time it has not gotten easier, maybe it just does not sting quite as much. Once again I just hope that because of you I can become a better person. I love you.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Happy Late Birthday Babe

We celebrated Mark's birthday with both of our families on May 11. We squished everyone in our house and ate yummy zucchini fritters. The kids ran around like little ban chis as usual.
I really didn't get the chance to tell Mark on his birthday how much he means to me.
7 years ago I married the man of my dreams. Everyday you makes me laugh and every day I love you more than the one before. You are so patient and understanding. You are the most driven and hard working man at anything you are working on. You are my strength when I am weak and my guide when I am lost. You are my opposite and that is what I love about you. Always looking for the positive and always have a smile on your face. I love you Mark Allen. Happy Late Birthday!

Beat the heat

My brother Jonathan and his family were able to come back into town a week ago to actually visit this time. It was perfect timing. We were all in need of a little cheering up and what better way than to spend time with family. We took the kids to the pool and they had a blast.
Surfer chick

Uncle Jonathan letting all the kids hang all over him

Love this with Papa
My little water baby